“You can love it, you can hate it, but you
cannot ignore it”
I discussed in the first part of this series, the irony of
expression. I can give my best shot but even my best buddy cannot get what I
have experienced, that is why listening of others spiritual experiences is
either joyful (If the listener is a seeker) or expression of “kya aisa hota
hai!” (For a person who will seek this this knowledge later, because in the
world of spirituality there is no word called “non seeker”. Either a person is
seeker or the person will come to this path later), in both the case there is a
sense of amazement remains. For a seeker experience of listening is like…ya ya
go ahead, “bahot maza aa raha hai”, yes, “mere saath bhi aisa hi hua hai”, “are
sachhi, tum jo kar rahe ho bilkul sahi hai” but I cannot express. Both the side
is contended as well as remain with the feeling “something is missing”. And for
late seekers the expression is like; “O really! Wow yaar, I know this is good
thing, I wish I could do it”. And limited expression prevails. And those three
magical questions
Who am I?
What am I doing?
Why am I doing all this?
Being spiritual is not an act; it’s an instance when time
meets with mind, the mind meets the self and self meets the time. It sounds
very complex but it is true. The impressions of past experiences are so strong
that ego always pushes the mind to move outwards. It searches the definition of
happiness in situation, object and person (SOP). Some time it gets also but
that is momentarily. How much a particular SOP will give joy? The impermanence
of the nature changes the SOP in every moment and the moment we use to love the
SOP has already been changed. That is why this whole world is called SOaP
Opera. Things come and go. Thoughts come and Go. Feelings rise and fall. And
these things, thoughts and feelings left us in the midst of the emotions. Even
Yogis are also not untouched to this situation. They also get affected by this
whole sole SOaP opera of this world. They get attached to someone; their
feelings also leave them in the midst of the emotional waves. Once somebody
asked me someday than what is the difference between a Yogi and the normal
human being. I did put it in this way, a yogi is not a person who came from the
sky, he also born out of love. He also had the same food and wore the same
cloth. The only difference is that the knowledge has dawn in his life, and most
importantly the capability to “Let Go” the things. He sees the situation just
like a play and easily co-relates it with the knowledge. He knows his boundary
and can observe the rise and fall of his emotions.
If we observe our whole emotions are based on the outer
circumference of the circle. Whole life is the journey of making the circumference
bigger and bigger and bigger. We think that bigger the circumference will be
more the happiness will get captured into it. But in the whole process of
making the circumference bigger we forget that we move away from the center,
from where the life has started. And time comes when returning from the
circumference to center become a big challenge. Even we don’t find a rickshaw.
We increase the circumference to find love and get to be loved, but get
nothing. And than the term “going inwards” becomes just two words. The
interesting point is that the diameter of the different circles may be
different and that is why we think that every person is different from me or I
am different from others, but center is just a point and its shape and size can
never be different. And that is why when “inward journey” come in life the
differences get demolish. And then realization comes that it is journey of
“Somebody to nobody and from nobody to everybody”.
